My Journey Through The Dark Valley – Day 2

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Day 2     5:15 a.m.

O God, It hurts!

I need Your hedge of protection, Lord.

Keep me.

Shield me from Satan’s whispers.

Be my defender.

Thank You for Your mercy and grace.

Thank You for caring for Olin.

You were there – even if he couldn’t grasp it.

You were there.

You know his heart.

With all he faced, growing up alone, he would pray, and You heard his prayers.

My life has changed – leaving Missouri – living with the Covid restrictions – watching as the world fall spart – nothing compares to this.

Lord, show me how to live without him.

God is faithful, by whom you were called unto the fellowship of His Son Jesus Christ our Lord.

I Corinthians 1:9 KJV

God, who has called you into fellowship with His Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful. 

NIV

God, who got you started in this spiritual adventure, shares with us the life of His Son and our Master Jesus. Never forget that.  

The Message

O God, You never gave up on Olin.

How he felt never impacted Your truth.

YOU WERE THERE.

The nature of spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty, consequently we do not make our nests anywhere. Common sense says – “Well, supposing I were in that condition . . .”

We cannot suppose ourselves in any condition we have never been in.

Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life: gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth.

“Believe also in Me,” Jesus said, not – “Believe certain things about Me.”

Leave the whole thing to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but HE WILL COME.

Oswald Chambers – My Utmost for His Highest

You are the Rock on which I stand.

Praise God!

My Song For The Day

Standing on the promises of Christ my King

Through eternal ages let His praises ring

Glory in the highest I will shout and sing

Standing on the promises of God

Standing on the promises that cannot fail

When the howling storms of doubt and fear assail

By the living Word of God I shall prevail

Standing on the promises of God

Standing on the promises of Christ the Lord

Bound to Him eternally by love’s strong cord

Overcoming daily with the Spirit’s sword

Standing on the promises of God

Standing on the promises I cannot fall

Listening every moment to the Spirit’s call

Resting in my Savior as my all in all

Standing on the promises of God

O God, You are faithful. Your Word is true.

I am standing on Your promises.

My Journey Through The Dark Valley – Day 1

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6:15 a.m.

I wrote:

Happy Birthday Olin!

Thank You Lord, for this husband You gave me. Thank You for his giving heart, for his love and support all these years, for the father he has been to our sons, for the grandfather he has been to Jacob, Josh, and Emma, for the “great-man” he has been to Charlotte and Emersyn. Lord, continue to guide him, to teach him, to use him. Bless him and keep him in Your care.

5:30 p.m.

Lord, I do not understand – but I trust!

I trust that You know what happened in the woods today.

I trust that You were there for You promised to never leave us.

I trust that You know what was in his mind and on his heart.

I trust that You are with me in this.

You know that my heart is broken.

I trust that You will walk through this dark valley with me.

I trust that You will bring some good out of this.

I thank You for my family.

I thank You for my faith family, a family that is made up of many fellow believers.

I thank You for so many friends.

I thank You for the time we had and for all the blessings over the years.

Lord, You are so good to us.

My Journey Through The Dark Valley

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God’s Light Shines Through The Storm Clouds

As I have lived through these past two weeks,

I have realized that it would be so easy to stay home and immerse myself in the garden.

I am happy in solitude because I always have God to talk with and I trust His counsel.

But God is calling me to step out of my comfort zone and put myself out there.

My devotional reading for Sunday, April 28th addressed Matthew 28:19-20,

Therefore go and make disciples of all nations,

baptizing them in the name of the Father,

and of the Son,

and of the Holy Spirit,

and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you.

And surely I am with you always, even to the end of the age.

Marva J. Dawn wrote that the original Greek version of verse 19 literally says,

“While you are going, be making disciples.”

She closed her devotional reading with this prayer:

Triune God, teach us, and empower us, to share our faith with joy . . .  Amen

I have decided to share my faith,

to invite “whosoever will” to join me on this journey.

This journey through the dark valley was not my plan.

But I trust that nothing touches me that doesn’t go through God first.

Either He sent it

or He allowed it

for HIS purpose.

I journal every day. It keeps me focused on God.

These are the writings I will be sharing.

I will share my conversations with God,

my thoughts,

my struggles,

and my triumphs.

Because I trust that God will bring me through the dark valley

and I will once again walk in the sunlight.